Taking A Break...

Sometimes you just need a break. Whether that'd be taking a week-long vacation from work, school or just life in general, we all need a break every now and then. For me, I took a semester off of school to give myself a break and to really focus on myself and figure out what I'd like to major in. For those who really know me or follow my social media, know that CrossFit has had a positive impact on my life and has been a passion of mine since graduating high school. After three years of doing CrossFit, I just needed a break. I found myself not enjoying it as much as I was previously. I'm just not motivated anymore to go and that's frustrating for multiple reasons. One reason being, I miss the people and relationships I have made through CrossFit. For some, I have been working out with these people since the beginning and for others I met along the way or in competitions. Regardless of how long I have known the person, each individual has made an important impact on my life and I love them all - they're family. With CrossFit playing such an important role in my life, I feel lost without it and bored. It was "my thing" and was what I looked forward to do everyday. Now that I'm taking a break from something that I've invested so much time into, I feel like I'm missing something. In March I signed up for my first half-marathon and I have been using that as my excuse as to why I haven't been going to the gym as much - but really, that's not the reason. Another reason being this is what I planned on pursuing in life. Was planning on majoring in Exercise Physiology and opening up a CrossFit gym of my own. Last summer I passed my CrossFit Level 1 certification to start coaching and I loved it - still do. For myself though, I'm just personally not into it as much as I once was. Will I ever do competitions again? Will I be able to love it as much as I once did when I first started? These are questions I am constantly asking myself that I unfortunately don't have an answer to and it's discouraging for me. The final reason being it puts me back to where I was three years ago - no idea with what I want to do with my life. I say this because, quite frankly I don't know if I for sure want to pursue something that I'm not emotionally invested into and if I'm not even motivated myself to go do it.

This is something that has been on my mind and I have been feeling deep in my heart for quite awhile now, so wanted to let it out. Everything happens for a reason and I'm hoping that I find the spark in me that I once had to love what I once did. Until next time, -B.